A Bitter End.

After the happiness slowly fades into a disconsolate state of mind, everything begins to abate into darkness and all that is heard are the muffled, underwater sounds of voices. That is when I begin to feel ashamed. I feel disgust as I recall how I glanced at you just moments ago in admiration. It feels worse knowing that this is not a priority, or even a thought. What is happening, am I dreaming? Did I really allow myself to become completely vulnerable? Oh yes, I did. But I will do such things no longer. The fact that I had expected this didn't make it any better. Karma, baby, I knew, but I hoped that maybe it wouldn't come back this time.
I was enjoying myself. It's nice to escape the city limits into another place. It's pleasant when my laughter has life and isn't a false reaction. Thank you, for recreating the dilemas that I left back at home. In a different time, a different circumstance, I am convinced that the outcome would still be the same. These mind games would still be played and your heartless chest would still breathe these breaths allowing you to whisper yet another lie.
Slipping into sleep has never been this uncomfortable. A watchman at the door fails to allow me to take a step into the darkness; however, he reminds me of the continuous circle that I have placed myself inside of yet again. As I pound my small fist against the immeasurable door, I pretend to listen to his hysterics in hopes that the obnoxious reminders will slip away into my dreams. Yet they continue on throughout them resluting in an unfailing restlessness.
In the afterglow your face makes me sick. I can handle the truth, but never forget the misleading sentences and lies that come from the lips of friends.

Listening To:
Rapid Hope Loss-Dashboard Confessional.
MakeDamnSure-Taking Back Sunday.
Liar (It Takes One To Know One)-Taking Back Sunday.
All Hail The Heartbreaker-The Spill Canvas.
Someday You Will Be Loved-Death Cab For Cutie.
Bad Sects-Cursive.
Lullaby-The Cure.
In Fear and Faith-Circa Survive.
I Watched You Taking Off-Bright Eyes.