Thinking Time.

Answer the questions. And don't be short about it.
(Sarah, I'm blog tagging you.)
Everyone should do this.


What is your worst fear; something you cannot touch?
At first, I'd say death. But I'm not afraid to be dead, I'm just afraid to die. I fear the future more than anything; it's unanswered questions that hang over our heads. When will I die? Who will I marry? Will I marry? Will I be successful? If someone had a crystal ball, I'd run away. If we knew our future, life wouldn't be the same. It makes life interesting. It's still my worst fear; something I try to avoid by wasting days in my head.


What makes you truly happy? (Something that involves no one else.)
I'm happy when I wake up early, open the window, and do something with myself. (Work out, walk, read.) I'm happy when I have time in the morning to sit on the porch and greet my day, with a cup of coffee in my hand. I'm happy when I can write without pulling my hair out. I'm happy when the windows are open, and folk tunes are blaring from my speakers. I'm happy when I'm wearing flannel. I'm happy when I'm dancing and no one else is watching. I'm happy when I have confidence.
"When everything is lonely, I can be my own best friend."


How do you cure your loneliness?
When I'm sad about being lonely, I eat chocolate and go to sleep.
But if I'm lonely, and want to overcome it, I turn on the stereo. Music saves my life.
Music is always there, until the end. Music is my only friend.


What is the most tiring book you've ever read, but finished?
When I was in fifth grade maybe, my dad made me read Eragon. I was down with the story line because I'm a nerd and like dragons, and adventures. But damn, some of those chapters just dragged on, and on, and on. And, I've never been one to enjoy forced reading. If someone makes me read something, chances are, I'm going to hate it. Just because I'm being told to. I made it through though, just in time to hand in my summer book report to my old man. I hated it then, but I'm glad now that I look back. He was always teaching me how important it was to read a book.


What are five things you want to do before your time here is done?
1. Go back to Conor's house, and not be terrified of being in his precense.
2. Write a book.
3. Travel, take pictures; create a book. Get published.
4. Work for a magazine.
5. Have a family.


Tell us some things about your best friend.
She's beautiful, smart, and strong. She has pretty, big blue eyes. I think she belongs with a tough guy. If I didn't have her through high school, I wouldn't be who I am. I can tell her anything. I miss her everyday. I think I'm beginning to appreciate her more, now that she's gone. She was always down a few streets, now she's miles away. She's the only person that can make me constantly laugh, until I cry. We're both so similar, with just the right amount of differences. I feel so blessed to have her, and I didn't even have to look for her. I've known her since I was born.

We've all been jealous of our best friend. Why?
I'm jealous of her long, lean legs. I wish I was as smart as her. She's stronger than I am, she can deal with independence a lot better than I can. And she's going to be 21 way before me, so I'll be jealous for a year and nine months, until I can join her at the bar. :(


Do you have a dream job?
Photographer for National Geographic, is one.
Owning a record store is another.
I have quite a few, actually.


Have you ever thought about why your favorite color is your favorite color?
Turquoise. Blues make me feel calm, I guess. Sometimes it reminds me of the ocean, or that popular little rock found in the Rockies. It's also always been my Grandma's favorite color.


Describe your favorite outfit.
My favorite outfit depends on my mood. But, jeans, and flannel. For sure!
To be exact, I prefer skinny jeans and flannel with some blues in it. But, that also depends on my mood.


It's 9 a.m. are you still sleeping? If not, what are you doing?
I hope I'm awake. Maybe I'm doing yoga or sitting on the porch. Maybe I'm getting ready for work. I'm listening to music, that's for sure.


Describe three of your most unattractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I'm very moody, and whiny.
I have nervous habbits.
My laugh is loud, thanks mom. It echos.


Describe three of your most attractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I can do something when I put my mind to it.
I'm really, really forgiving. Too forgiving sometimes.
I think my sarcasm is attractive.


Which was easier?
It was hard to narrow the first one down.


Is today going to be a good day?
Yes! I'm going to drink my fresh pot of blueberry cinnamon crumble coffee, and maybe go visit my Grandma. And maybe get a new hookah.