Undeserving

The night cold, bitter breathes;
A wife I will never be, how anyone could want me?
Corrupted in and out of consciousness, dark skies;
My eyes forget to fall under soft spoken spells; and
The stars don’t tempt me underneath snow spread current.
For myself, I cannot even fall, how anyone could want me?
I wonder it all, as the days gently sway.
Lungs living through poisonous pipes, inhaled leaving life,
A faithful wife I will never be; betraying of my family.
Devil strikes me, words unkind escape me, he constantly drains;
So I feel as though demoralized most under this vast starlit sky.
No kind heart is deserving of me;
I am deserving of no kind heart myself; just soak in sin,
Bitter, boiling, burning into the blue moon’s calling.